First it took me a while to start doing
something about my surprising weight gain. I kept delaying action time, because
I “knew” that I would be easy. I lost 91 pounds before, so I thought I would
lose the recently gained 20 pounds as soon as I start my efforts.
And, as expected,
when I stopped allowing myself to relax healthy eating on week-ends and was
strong while watching TV in the evenings (no unhealthy snacks), the weight
started to come down. I got to 180 pounds relatively quickly. Losing 10 pounds felt
good. It confirmed that when I made efforts I lost weight.
Something else also
happened. Since I was successful again, I did not keep going to get to my healthy
weight of 170 pounds. I relaxed my eating
and I stayed at the 180-182 level. My arrogant thinking that “I can lose weight
easily any time I want” prevailed and I am remaining at the 180 pounds point.
I
am weak.
